For a long time now, I've wanted to try a specific kind of lesbian porn for two reasons. The first one is simple. I love sex. I've already talked in several blog entries here about just how much it means to me to be intimate and connected with someone else, even if that connection only exists in the scene of the moment and nothing beyond that. That may seem like an odd viewpoint for someone who grew up in the modern day and age to hold, especially for an older lady such as myself, but it's always been true for as far back as I can remember. Maybe some of the blame is with my mother. She always used to describe some of her happiest times with me and my siblings as being around the kitchen table, listening to us talk about all of the interesting things we were doing as we grew and learned. That's not to say that the times she got out in town and mingled with her own friends weren't important or that having me go through adolescence and pursue those friends she did mention weren't important—to the contrary, I can't say enough about how wonderful a mother and a human she was, especially with her passing being so early. But she always had a different feeling for sitting in the kitchen or living room and listening to stories about our adventures—like that, after all, was the glue that really bound us all together. I never understood it at first, not being the sentimental or wistful sort, but I get it a bit more these days, especially with the way I've developed after working a lot with women my own age and a bit older. Women don't get old. They get interesting. Now, if a woman gets interesting, she inevitably starts to think, to listen, to feel. For better or for worse, a lady's interest is almost the very definition of what separates her from the world, in terms of the presence of her own agency and the feelings and reactions that go on inside of her. That's the one thing that really hit home the strongest for me as I've gotten older. Every woman is different because, well, every individual is different.
